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No restoration has taken place during March from the first until the 12th. Time constraints got to me as well as a ten day business trip to the USA, and I was just unable for so many reasons to restore during this period. Sitting in an airline seat with a restoring rig on is not my idea of fun, and the logoistics of the trip made it too challenging to restore.

The good news is that I stil retain small partial flaccid coverage. I'd wondered if this was just elastic stretching, and it isn't. It's permanent.

You know, it was today I actually got restarted. And it was a relief to retape and get going again. I had to remember to use a cubicle for peeing again, whihc is the only minor inconvenience, and then I had to abandon changing at the gym and nip to a cubicle to untape! I wonder if any of us are brave enough to change all taped up in full view.

Anyway, the amazing thing is that when I got home after working out I had 50% coverage of a super-flaccid penis. OK, it went away as it woke up, but it is more than I have ever had before. I suspect we are back to elastic stages of restoration again, like on day one, so I am not over excited about it, but I wanted to share it with you

I admit it. I have been lax. Over the weekned zilch. Monday, Zilch. No excuses. But I am back and taped up again.

I think I understand now. I'm simply going through a disillusioned period with restoring. I don't see a problem here. What I am finding is that more and more love making is spontaneous, and so the taping gets inthe way. So I am leaving the taping off in case we make love. This means I am resenting the taping because it means one more thing to remove before making love. Now that makes sense.

I am also restoring my foreskin to regain control over one aspect of my life. Looking back over the past many years I have been totally fucked up and allowing everyone else and everything else to control me. Now I am in charge of much more of my life, and it is less and less necessary to get control. Now this means I can restore my foreskin because I choose to and wish to, not because I feel have to in order to get control back.

There are no pictures for March 2002. There was no point because I did so little, and sensitivity did not change at all. But nothing regresssed either.