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I had a ponder today before taping up. I looked at shaft skin. Yes the ruffles are sufficient to force a mini-rollover. I looked at belly, too. And pressed the belly back to where it ought to be if I were the weight I should be. The ruffles vanished. I also gained about a half inch of flaccid length! I can now see two methods of restoration.

• Carry on tugging
• Carry on eating

I need to slim as well as restore.

Much quicker to tape up. I have it down to just over a minute now. The extra ruffles actually make it harder to make the skin tense when taping up, so I know I am making progress. Even so, having seemed bewilderingly quick initially, progress has now reduced (in my head at least) to what is more "normal". Or maybe I am just feeling low today.

Untaped in a hot bath. Good news for comfort during removal. Hot water softens the glue. And the "untaping overhang" lasted ages! Very encouraging indeed. And sensitivity seems to be more even and "better" in an indefinable way.

Before taping up this morning I noticed more "potential rollover". Very pleasing. Packed tightly today and will increase packing pressure during the day. This does seem encouraging. Initial packing is about 1/4 to 1/2 inch longer than the pill tube, and it increases during the day.

I dozed off during the day. I woke under major pressue (I'd gone to bed unwell). A major erection taped to the pill tube! Now that was one spectacular erection, especially as I needed a pee very badly, and had to removed the packing which was "jammed" between the glans and the tube end. That was enough to let me decide not to go to bed for the night taped up! Mind you it was very encouraging. Now if I can just market the pill tube as an alternative to viagra.......

Untaping the rollover stayed for ages. I'm wondering how it will work when and if it become permanment, because the circumcision wound healed with the skin trained to be alingned down the shaft with little apparent scope for folding back on itself.

Noticed in the night that the extra skin is tempted to roll over. Well, at least when flaccid. Erect it is still drum tight. Well, you'll see that soon enough mid month when I take new photos. I plan to have a monthly set, and a page which shows the "same" pic taken at monthly intervals as well. By the way there are no prizes for guessing how I noticed it was tempted to roll over.

Untaped in the bath again, which certainly helps to loosen the glue. The thing I noticed after I got dry is that the rollover lasted. I measured it. Daft, I know, but you get curious. But it was a whole half inch. Now I was very flaccid and wrinkled, and it was after a very hot bath, but I haven't seen that before I started to restore.

Today I had packed the tube very tightly. There is one major disadvantage. Getting the packing out to have a pee was very hard! But it does seem the way to go, from an engineering standpoint at least.

Published a new set of pictures today. Very happy with progress. At present, and I think for the next few weeks, the heavily compressed packing inside the pill tube looks like the way to go. Today I taped up a greater length of shaft skin to the outside of the tube, and am going to try for earlier pressure inside, still always looking at comfort levels as the place to stop.

Interesting sensations with this tightly packed tube. It is "always present", that is I can alwasy feel it. It reminds me of an S&M device I've read about in a story I host on the main site "The Story of Tim". Unable to get erect but always stimulated. (It's a gay story, and a bit specialist. Only read it if you're gay, ok?) Packing density is "one and a third tube lengths" of relatively incompressible material. Makes an impressive trouser snake too!

For fine adjustments I add a folded sheet of toilet paper each time I have a pee. This means that I am continually increasing pressure throughout the day in small but finite and noticable steps. I do end up with a heap of confetti at piddle time, though. And it is wise not to arrive needing an urgent pee, because removing the packing takes a short time. Oh there is one other drawback. Obviously I sit to pee. One day the "vortex effect" let the whole bladder load swirl out twixt seat and bowl rim. Amused I was not. I learnt to direct it downwards after that.

Untaping tonight the whole construction had sort of come undone. The prime casue was too small a wad of cotton wool, which expanded sideways as it escaped from the tube mouth.

I learnt my lesson from yesterday and used a huger pad of cotton wool the entire length of the tube to start with. after half an hour I was able to add thr extra inch of the hard roll of Kleenexe and it is now under good pressure, and comfortable.

This urethraplasty scar is a pain. I don't mean it hurts. I mean it gets in the way. It runs longitudinally from the tip of the penis on the underside, and is not flexible. That part keeps coming untaped. Untaped means unstretched. This will require some thought. Maybe I have to tape that part first and firmly, and then the rest.

A weird crispy soreish place on the glans this morning. I decided to ignore it, tape and pack as usual, but use a bit more moisturiser. So did the moisturiser dispenser, so got more than I bargained for. The packing quantity I'm using means I have to pack in two stages: cotton wool pad first, get dressed, have a cup of tea (I am English after all) and then the tightly folded and rolled Kleenexe is rammed home. Why do I feel I am loading a musket, albeit with a blank cartridge?

Still, untaping is always encouraging. The rollover stayed for about five minutes again in a hot bath. But it is sometimes hard to convince myself of real progress.

Somehow I started today pissed off with taping and restoring. It isn't all that much fun. Not today it's not. Ok, it isn't hard to tape your dick to a tube, and to add packing, it really isn't. But today it seemed like it. But then my wife encouraged me. Restoring alone cannot be fun. I think I might have stopped "just for the day" without encouragement. I suspect that "just for the day" means "for good."

Today I taped an inch of the tube with sticky side outwards. Ok, it uses twice as much tape. No, 50% more! But we will see what the results are. They are encoruaging so far, and my wife is very positive about the whole process. Hmm. I wonder if it is because I now keep my dick in a film canister and it takes major planning before I get to use it? Foreplay! imagine it!

I am starting to plan the use of a tensioning device. I am probably at least a month away from that. As you know my original plan is to stretch the nascent inner foreskin first and then stretch the entire new construction second. I am likely to use an elastic tensioner to the lower thigh. Part of the reason of using extra tape today is to see if I have sufficient suitable extra skin yet.

The extra tape was not worth the effort. It just meant more to unstick. The "untaping rollover" is not happening at present either. This is a bit of a roller coaster emotioanlly. I know I am making progress, I just want to see it all the time.

Back to the old method of taping today. I think the "depressed" mood is because I hurt my neck on Christmas day and the painkillers are not helping my outlook. The ruffles of extra skin are definitely there and the whole shaft skin is looser. That plus the "bath of moisturiser" on the glans is definitely improving things. I am obviously just too impatient. That and huge doses of codeine are depressing.

Bathtime was much better. I untaped in the bath. Boy does that make the process more pleasant. The rollover last the entire bath, through the washing process, and through the drying process. It looked like a little acorn, bless it. Well, not quite so little, but an acorn even so. My wofe was impressed. No, idiot, not with the size of the acorn, but with the progress. She's looking forward to not being made sore by long lovemaking. I, of course, as the pics try so hard to conceal, need to lose a lot of flab to be able to do that!

Moisturising removed the rollover, but the ruffles are definitely looser. Depression has lifted.

The extra ruffles lasted and were so "present" when I taped up! It feels like a historic day! (I'm quite pleased, but being an Englishman am trying to understate it). I do have a taping problem though.

The underside of the skin has that neat but awful scar from the urethraplasty. That scar is not very flexible at all. Taping it to the underside of the tube means I have to fold it double, a thing it objects to. It will not behave when I tape it to the tube. It refuses to stay in place, refuses to stick to the glue and generally has mind of its own. Today I taped that part first and then put a curcumferential ring aroind the rest. This may remove the problem the scar gives later each day. it untapes itself, leaving zero tension on it. Time will tell.

Rollover remained on untaping for ages.

Easy to tape up today. I used the extra piece of tape trick again, and this seems to be solving some of the scar problems. The extra ruffles made it very easy to tape up.

And tonight the rollover stayed for ages in the bath, even after I got out and dried. As usual moisturising "allowed" the poor little thing to grow, and the rollover vanished, but the ruffles make the bunched skin behind the corona look distinctly darker compared with the rest of the shaft skin. I am as happy with the progress as I am ever likely to be.

Still using the additional tape scrap to tape the scar on first, and it seems to be successful. Greasier brand of moistursier today, "just for the hell of it." Taping up is now a simple routine.

5pm I went to the gym. Untaped beforehand - I didn't fancy a public changing room with my dick in a film tube, nor showering and getting weird looks and comments! For those who live in less shy societies, UK changing rooms are "All in together boys", and you can be as shy and use a cuicle, or as exhibitionist as you like. Now look, I'm gay, Ok? So you know where I stand on that. 7pm I retaped but with a tape round the "fauxsin" leaving a peehole. Interesting experiment. I wonder if it will work? I just could not be bothered to re-pill tube, so I decided to risk a "botch job with a peehole.

Something struck me as I had untaped and redressed to go to the gym. I could feel my dick against the boxers. It reminded me of the sensation after I was cut the first time at 23. Then it was sheer hell to learn how to have an exposed glans inside clothes. Today I felt a tangible demonstration of increased sensitivity. Not enough to register a whole integer on the scale though.

Not the longest "tugging day" ever. And peeing through a micropore tape tunnel was amusing! And my poor little dick looked as though it had retracted and vanished totally! But the rollover stayed during the bath. It did its traditional vanishing act during the moisturising session though.

Same routine as yesterday. Untaped at 5 to go swimming. And I noticed something in the showers afterwards. Well apart from the fact that it is true at least about certain black men which made me feel so inadequate! I still had rollover! In the shower, after swimming!

Retaped at 7:15 with the same jury rig as yesterday because I couldn't face the pill tube again. But this is getting exciting! To me it justifies the whole damned process. I was so excited I made a post at the Yahoo support group

Could not tape up until 1pm today. Very encouraged that the rollover seems to be permanent. How am I going to manage this now I have a gym schedule though? Changing rooms are very public places. Andmind you, I was at the gym today beintg semi active, even untaped, the rollover was there in the shower afterwards. It's awkward, though. No method is discreet enough to undergo "shower scrutiny" without causing the raised eyebrows of "Don't bring your bondage gear in here!"

I have a counsellor to help me deal with the impotence following the surgery. Yesterday was our first session since I started to restore. He was amazed. What I need to do is to reclaim ownership of my dick. He was hugely complimentary about the idea (I guess he's paid well enough not to be insulting [oh, he has this web address, so I'm sure if he reads this he'll happily beat me up! That was half tongue in cheek]), checked that I understood what I was doing, agreed that my plastic surgeon refusing to offer surgical reconstruction was professionally excellent advice form the surgeon, and gave me lots of encouragement. We suspect that regaining ownership alone, plus the extra benefits of sensitivity, will cure the semi impotence and mean that viagra is no longer needed for sex.

A lunar month! This is day 28! I still feel a bit like a lunatic. Jury rig taped first thing, because I have to untape very shortly to go to the gym. There is sufficient skin to make the jury rig taping possible, when 27 days ago I tried and failed miserably. I am purposely not measuring skin increase. It's like weighing yourself each day when losing weight. I care about the end result. I can see progress and that is what matters. And feel it as an extra circlet of skin. And I can remember what a foreskin felt like.

I remember it so well, even though it was a long long time ago that I created a short document to show you and tell you what it was like.

So, jury rigged from 9 until 10:45, and pill tubed from 12:30 until 7:45 with firm packing pressure. When I looked at 12 midnight at bedtime, the rollover was still there. My wife is deeply impressed. Also sensitivity is marginally up.

I am getting better at taping. Under a minute. And the small rollover helps too. Still not using weights or tension, simply because I am making such good progress without. The fitness regime is an interruption because it means untaping and retaping, but I am taking charge of two aspects of my life at the same time (three if you add removing the obsession I had for the boy I fell for when we were each 13), and I am not letting go.

By the way it's about time we had some diary sites nominated for the award. Two only is pathetic! [listens to deafening silence]

Taped at at 9:30, untaped at 1:30. Retaped at 4:30, pill tube both times, and firm packing pressure. Made a horrid error when I untaped tonight. Forgot in my enthusiasm to be gentle. Got a pinprick of blood, presumably from a hair follicle. Ouch!

Taped up with care at 10:30 this morning remembering yesterday's blood pinprick. I have to make sure when I untape, which I will be doing twice today, that it does not turn into a split. Untaped at 12:30 with no problems. It's healed. Retaped at 4:30 when I got back from the gym. Very pleased to get a note of encouragement from http://geocities.com/kotuggin/ telling me not to give up. Have a look at his site.

Not the longest taping day today. And unpleasant news on the tape front relevant to UK tapers. Boots micropore tape was wonderful. I used that for the first month and it's dead easy to remove. I just changed to Superdrug's own brand. Very, very sticky. Hardfto untape, hard to remove the glue residue, and (for me) just an unpleasant experience (which I have to repeat tomorrow).

Oh boy. No other tape in the house, so it is either Superdrug's or none at all. Well at least it holds it secure! Started at noon. Heck it's Saturday!

I am so pissed off with the Superdrug tape. 10:30 the whole tube fell off. The adhesive has transferred from the tape to my dick. I have a sticky dick, the tape has no glue left. The tube is covered in glue. "Fuck Superdrug". Still, they are the cheapest in the UK for Viagra!

I suppose the Superdrug tape will have to do. It's a sunday and I can't get to the local "Boots" store for their brand. The fun thing is that in about six weeks anyone searching for "Superdrug" using Google will find this page!

Taped up late today. 1:30pm. But then with this unsticky tape it doesn't really matter. Had a super email from a new restorer yesterday, too. He is 6 days in and learning what to do. Like me he is in the UK where circumcision is unfashionable and now only performed for "medical reasons". The gym changing rooms bear (bare?) this out. Men in their 40s and above, 50% cut. Below that far fewer. Infants 0% unless from some religion that requires genital mutilation. What was my point? Ah yes

When you start to restore, keep a diary. It doesn't have to be public, but keep one. With pictures. And remind yourself like another friend reminded me: "In two years time, if you stop restoring, or do not start, the only thing that will have changed is the date."

A wonderful surprise on untaping. To anyone else it would be trivial. But, erect, on the top, just behind the ridge are some small ruffles.

Still have that damned awful tape. I hate the way the glue ends up being useless. I'm still excited about last night's erect ruffles, too. Minute, of course, but finite. She Who Must Be Obeyed could see them too! Taped up at 7:15, untaped at 2:15, retaped at 6:30 and untaped at 10:45. Not the most eventful day really. I have a cold coming on, so I'm pissed off

Wow! When I woke my little willy had a rollover. No, look, be reasonable, when the morning erection went away it had a rollover! The rollover lasted from being noticed until I taped up at 8:45. It even cheered me up somewhat through this damned cold.

What has cheered me up is that it is now easier to wank! It reminds me of the stage between circumcisions when I was cutfar looser. I can use the shaft skin to wank with!

First day in the office today after starting to restore. The trousers are tighter and the pill tube kind of shows. I need to work on concealment. Woke up with rollover again. Very pleasing. Awesome rollover at bedtime despite untaping at 7:30 and dooing a yoga workout and a swim at the gym.

I have worked out why the "Boots" brand of micropore tape works. It's the "genuine 3M" article. Superdrug uses a similar looking article, but not as good.

Today I woke with rollover again. And even better, as my dick "stretched" to its regular relaxed shortness (sorry, length!) I had a baby "hood" just toppling over the corona!

Taped up late today, with a different width of tape on the tube. Why? Well the only 3M tape in the store yesterday was 5cm (2") wide, so I am using that on the tube and the 2.5cm (1") tape to secure the skin into place. I can't see that it will make any difference except that it isnl;t as cheap!

Progress seems slow today. Don't know why. I suppose I must be on the downward part of the rollercoaster for a bit.

Oww! Now I know the drawback of 5cm tape. I had 2.5cm of sticky surface on the pill tube, which gave great secutiry during that day, and let me use a lot of packing pressure. But it was when I untaped I found it. I'd obviously rolled more skin than usual into the tape, and then taped that into place. Hairy skin. Oww! Now if we include that fact that I am a bit on the low side about progress at the moment, that was a horrid experience

Got up very late today, and only managed to tape up at 6pm coz of the gym etc, hence the less than six hours taping time. Well sometimes these things happen. In the global scheme of things it will make no real difference, but I feel a little self guilt. The low feeling is lifting though

Am thinking of a minor links redesign on this page. All the forthcoming months will make this unwieldy. No big deal, but I'll play a little. Expect to see commentaries and pictures compressed into a sort of "mega link" soon. Maybe even today.

Nothing of any note to report. Except that I am feeling good about the process again. Amazing how the emotions go up and down like a yo yo.

I've been so busy today I have hardly noticed I was taped up. That has to be a good thing. it is becoming automatic. Loads of ruffles all down the shaft. Oddly the rollover seems to have vanished for the moment, but that isn't worrying me at all. I look at the shaft skin and think that it is only a matter of time before it forces its way over the ridge.

Also the fabled gliding sensation. Well, I am not sure, but something made sex feel better. I wonder if it was that?

A steady day's tugging today, starting at 7:30 am, and ending at 11 pm or so. I even managed a ballroom dancing class taped up.

A warm welcome back to 2.5 cm tape. Much easier to put on the tube, and I am certain a more effective tugging mechanism. I truly want to extend only the small amount of what will become fake inner foreskin

Untaping proved it to be a good rationale. The narrower tape allows the rollover to be trained. When using the wider tape the rollower vanished although ruffles increased. The narrower tape allows rollover to show, which is encouraging, as well as generating more ruffles. My mood is thus much better!

Now I proved my philosophy of narrow tape to stick to the pil tube. Rollover stayed present all during the gym session and was there in the shower after swimming.

Something else happened too. Sensitvity was up! I discovered this while using the fiendish exercise bike. I found the clothes were rubbing and I was getitng hard. No erotic thoughts, just a mechanical rubbing. It's going to be worth all the effort.