Knots, Book 5
by Elias Scott
Andy and I picked up Ashton and Scott at Burger King at noon on Saturday and then drove out to the pond. The closer we got to the pond, the less I felt I wanted to do anything. Well, that wasn't exactly true. I wanted to do it, but felt there might be consequences. Andy always has a tendency to throw caution to the wind. Sometimes I make the mistake of following. Not that I didn't do my share of leading on occasion, but I always had doubts. So here we were at the pond, and again I had my doubts. There were no other cars there, but Andy found a place in the trees where his car was less likely to be seen.
I pulled Andy to the side once we got out of the car. "I don't feel comfortable with this."
"Put your fears away, Matt. It's going to be fun, and all our sexual fantasies will be realized."
"But nothing. Just their butt, my butt, and your butt."
"Funny, Andy, as usual."
"Hey, it's up to you. A threesome is fine with me. Your loss."
I was really torn. "Okay, just this one time."
"What are you guys talking about?" Ashton asked walking up to us.
"Be with you in a minute. Matt and I have to iron something out. In the meantime, why don't you guys find a nice clearing in the woods."
"What's wrong with right here?" Scott asked. "It will make everything more interesting and dangerous."
"I'm not going to do it if we're doing it here," I said. "Find a place where we won't get caught."
Ashton made clucking noises. "Chicken."
"You're right, Ashton. Andy and I have already exposed ourselves to a lot of shit, and we don't need anymore."
"I didn't say I wanted to leave. I just want to play safe."
Ashton paused for a couple of beats while he decided if he wanted me in the foursome, and finally gave a half-hearted "Okay, if you're going to be that way."
He and Scott headed off, so Andy and I could finish our conversation. "So Andy, I'm game this time because I said I would, but not next time. Do you understand?"
"Come on, Matt, you're being a coward. It's going to be fun, and we can do it regularly. These guys are hot and they want to do it. What more do you want? No one has to find out. We're all under eighteen. It's not like with Dillon."
"I know. But it scares me."
"That's the fun of it, Matt. It's scary. Come on. Give in to your desire. It's going to be fun."
"I'm only doing it because I agreed. This is the last time; I'll never do it again."
"Never say never."
He put his hand on my back and walked me toward the area in the woods where Ashton and Scott headed. They were about fifty yards into the woods and had found a clearing big enough to throw a blanket on some leaves. They already had everything set up when we got there. "So let's get naked and go crazy," Ashton said as he pulled his shirt off.
We did the same. The cool air and warm sun felt good on my skin. I still had my tan from the summer. Andy did too, although he was lighter than me. Ashton was tan, and Scott had a deeper tan than all of us. Despite all my doubts, I was hard as soon as my clothes were off. Scott grabbed me and brought me into a kiss. Our naked bodies pressed together and I knew I wanted it, wanted it all. We kissed deeply as he grabbed the cheeks of my ass and squeezed them. I pulled his cheeks apart and slipped my finger in his hole. He moaned. Andy knelt down and began licking and sucking Ashton's cock. Ashton put his hands behind his head and leaned back showing his flat stomach and abs. "Andy, you're a great cocksucker."
"Had a lot of practice. Ash."
I moved to the blanket, and Scott followed, kissing me all the way to the ground. We rolled around on the blanket locked in our naked embrace until he finally let go. He flipped around, and we began sucking each other. He had a beautiful cut cock, and it felt so good in my mouth. This was dangerous territory because I began to realize just how much I enjoyed sucking someone else's cock besides Andy's. He'd become so familiar and I began to wonder if he felt the same. Scott swirled his tongue around the tip of my cock and then went all the way down to the pubes. I did the same to him and then moved my tongue to his ass. He smelled like body wash. His ass was shaved and it made for easy licking. I licked around the edge, then flipped my tongue back and forth on his pucker before sticking it inside and licking around.
"Damn that feels good. Where'd you learn to be so good?"
"Practice," was all I said. I didn't want to tell him how many asses I'd licked and figured one word would do the trick.
Andy and Ashton were doing a sixty-nine too. Andy looked over at us and turned to Ashton. "Let's join them." Ashton moved in front of me, knelt down, and placed his cock on my lips after slapping my face with it a few times. I got the hint and began to suck it. Andy sucked on mine, and Ashton rolled me on my back and began licking my ass. Scott shifted position and began kissing me while Andy continued sucking my cock. My whole body was in ecstasy. I'd forgotten how good this felt and began to think all my protesting with Andy was just bullshit. I wanted to do this again and again. Scott quit kissing me and put his cock at my lips until I opened them and took his hardness deep in my mouth. So there I was, with a cock in my mouth, Ashton licking my ass, and Andy sucking my cock. It was like Andy had told them to make me the center of attention so I'd want to come back for more.
Ashton slipped on a condom, lubed my ass and his cock before burying it in my ass. He started fucking me slowly and then faster so I was soon moaning, "Yeah, fuck me." as best I could with Scott's dick in my mouth. Andy kissed Scott, so now I had access to both Andy's and Scott's dicks. I sucked them both one at a time. Ashton was still fucking me and bending over to take my cock in his mouth, and it made me feel like my whole body was weightless. Now I had a cock in my ass, two dicks to suck, and my cock in Ashton's mouth. It was what I would call indescribable ecstasy.
"Let's form a circle and suck each other," Andy said.
We formed a circle, and soon each of us had a cock in our mouth. Everyone was moaning because their mouths were filled with dick. We continued like this until Ashton said, "Let's chain fuck."
"You mean train fuck?" I asked.
"Yeah, train fuck."
Andy got behind Ashton, Ashton grabbed me and put me in front of him, and Scott got in front of me. It was too good to be true. We put on condoms, lubed each other's asses, and began fucking. Soon everyone but Scott had their cock in someone's ass. Scott turned back to me saying, "Fuck me, Matt. Give it to me good."
Once we got our rhythm, we were like a fucking machine. Andy was fucking Ashton, who was ramming my ass, while I was pushing my cock in and out of Scott's. The sensation of being fucked and fucking at the same time was something I could only handle for a short period. We were all yelling, "Yeah, oh yeah. Fuck me. Shit, that feels so fucking good. Don't stop. Fuck me faster," all at the same time until I couldn't take it anymore, and blew my load into the condom buried in Scott's ass. Soon everyone came, and we all fell down on the blanket like we'd been shot. My body was spent and weak, and I didn't think I could move at first. My resolve weakened and I asked, "When are we going to do this again?"
Andy said, "As soon as we can. Let's take a rest, and we'll do it again."
And that's what we did. If someone had seen us, we'd have never known because we were so engrossed in our sex games. For a short time I didn't give a damn, and would have continued even if someone had caught us. Fortunately, as far as we knew, no one did.
After we dropped off Ashton and Scott back at Burger King, Andy said, "So, what do you think?"
"I think that was the craziest wildest sex we've had in a long time. I forgot how great group sex was."
"You are one sex maniac," he said.
"Maybe so. I can't wait to do it again."
"Hey, we're on for next Saturday. Do you think you can wait that long?"
"I'm not sure, but I'll manage."
That night I began to feel guilty because I'd lost my resolve and let my dick do my thinking for me. How was I ever going to get the old Matt back if I continued to do things like that? It was like the devil was on my shoulder asking, "What can it hurt? Why not enjoy it while you can; it's just good fun. No one gets hurt." But deep down I feared that someone was going to get hurt, but I didn't know who.
After we dropped off Ashton and Scott, I drove us to Matt's house and parked in his driveway so we could talk.
A grin crossed Matt's face. "That was the frigging best sex I've had in a long time. Can't wait until we can get together to do it again. Maybe we should call Colt."
"I thought you didn't want to do that."
"Hell, Andy. He's been with Zoe, and he broke up with Thomas, so I don't think it will make much difference now. It's worth a try."
"Don't you think Thomas will be a little pissed?"
"I don't think so. He told Colt he was letting him go to find himself, as if he could just run off and find himself at the local Burger King."
I shook my head. "Yeah, but he's with Zoe. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for it. But the last thing I expected was to hear you suggesting Colt join us. Maybe we should ask Thomas too? Hell, we could have a sixum."
"Funny, Andy, a sixum?
"Yeah, a sixum. What do you think?"
He paused. "You know what, Andy, I was so horny and so turned on, that I kept wondering why we couldn't have group sex all the time. I'm sure Scott and Ashton would be willing. After what we did today, I don't think sex just between you and me will be as fun as it used to be. What do you think?"
"Hell, Matt. I always love it when it's just you and me."
"I do too, but today I kept thinking something was missing. I never felt that way before."
His words scared me a little. "What do you mean? Are you saying that our sex isn't any good?"
"No, not that exactly, but the sex today was so awesome by comparison, that we should
do it more often. There's nothing preventing us from rotating from partner to partner. We don't have to be screwing each other all at the same time. Two of us can be fooling around while the other two are doing it, and then we can intermingle, and then switch to someone else. It makes me hard just thinking about it. Don't forget, variety is the spice of life."
I got a little pissed. "First you don't want to join us for a foursome, and now that's all you want. You're just going to leave me out in the cold?"
"What the fuck are you talking about? You're not out in the cold. You're going to be there too."
"Matt, the sex we have together is special."
"It's sex, Andy. And it's more special because you're my best friend, but it's not nearly as fun as what we did today."
Dr. Walker's question ran through my head: "Have you thought about the con- sequences?" Of course, I told him there weren't any consequences, or at least I didn't think there were. "Matt, have you thought about the consequences of what we're doing?"
He gave me a surprised look. "Listen, Andy. This foursome was your idea. Not mine.
The question should be, have you thought about the consequences?"
I don't know why I said it, but I said, "There aren't any. Just a lot of fun and great sex. What more could you want?"
"So, Matt, who's going to talk to Colt? You or me?"
"I'm not going to do it."
"So I'll ask him. How 'bout you talk to Thomas. You've had sex with him before. Maybe he's interested now that Colt has moved on."
"I'll talk to him, but I don't think he'll be interested."
"Give it a try. I'll talk to Colt."
Megan and Zoe
Megan called Zoe after Zoe's date with Colt on Saturday. "Did you have sex?"
"No, we just messed around."
"What do you mean messed around?"
"You know. We cuddled and did a few other things."
"Never mind. It's between Colt and me. I did what you suggested and talked to him about having sex beforehand, and that's why we didn't go all the way. He was a gentleman."
"Matt was a gentleman too until it came to commitment. I have the feeling Colt's going to be the same. Then you'll be left hanging, just like me."
Zoe laughed into the phone. "Maybe I don't want any commitment either. That's what your problem is, Megan. You wanted a commitment, and Matt wasn't ready. I know Colt isn't ready either, and if I play my cards right, I may hook him in the end."
"Good luck, Zoe. Thomas told me that Colt wants to try different sex partners. He wants to find himself, and he may not find it with you. He might find it with some guy, and only God knows how or where he'll find himself. Do you want to take a chance on him?"
"Look, Megan." Zoe paused. "Colt is fine, and I love having his warm, sexy body next to mine. I'm not sure where this will go. But for now, it's no sex. Just touching and a few other things."
"Zoe, you're being stupid. Colt's been around the block, so to speak. He's used to having sex with guys and he's not going to be satisfied with just lying next to your warm, naked body."
"Look, Megan. I have nothing to lose. If it comes to no more than what we've already done, then that's fine."
"What if he wants more?"
"Then we'll do like you said; we'll talk about it."
I couldn't wait to see Dr. Walker because I wanted to talk to him about life's unexpected consequences. Matt had his first sex with me to save me from myself. He wasn't ready for sex, but he did it because he loved me. He had no idea what the consequences for him would be. Yes, he was there for me. But it changed his life. Maybe that's just the way love is. It's about taking chances and accepting the consequences. But there is a big difference between loving so much that you'll do what you think it will take to save someone's life, and quite another to have sex with multiple sex partners we don't love.
I was unsure about calling Colt. There could be more unintended consequences and deep down it didn't seem right. Matt and I both respected Thomas, but Colt had hurt him, so maybe he wouldn't care. But who knew. In fact, Matt had the harder thing to do, which was to talk to Thomas about joining us. I figured he'd say no, but we really didn't know. He'd been damaged by Dillon just like the rest of us.
I had to wait a few minutes for Dr. Walker when I went to see him on Monday. The boy with the bad complexion exited the office, and Walker patted him on the back as the boy headed out the door. The boy's head was down and he didn't look at me.
Our session began as it always did, with the question, "How did your week go?"
I answered. "I'm not sure."
He smiled. "Why, did you find there were consequences you hadn't expected?"
"Yep. That's exactly it, Doc."
Without reflection, we go blindly on our way, creating more unintended consequences, and failing to achieve anything useful. -- Margaret J. Wheatley
The law of unintended consequences pushes us ceaselessly through the years, permitting no pause for perspective. -- Richard Schickel
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