The Move
by Doug Smith
Chapter 45
This story is a work of FICTION. The events described have only occurred in my mind. Any similarities to actual events or persons are strictly coincidental.
© 2018 Doug Smith. All righst reserved. The author retains the copyright, and any other rights, to this original story. You may not publish it or any part of it without explicit authorization from me.
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And again, I apologize for the delay
Dan
Josh put his arms around me as soon as we closed the door. We hadn't even bothered using towels when we walked, or rather ran, from the bathroom, and his smooth, soft skin felt fantastic against mine. I don't know how he did it but it was like he was holding me tight in places I wasn't bruised while gently pressing against places that were. It was like he was trying to heal me with his love.
It was perfect. You hear someone say all the time he makes me feel like no other, and I have to admit, it's true. Josh really does make me feel like no other… even Aaron. Part of me felt bad thinking that but a bigger part was happy. I realized I truly was ready to move on. It was one of those moments I wanted to last forever.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Nothing. I was just thinking."
"What is there to think about? You're home. You're going to be okay. We're here together. There's nobody to bother us. We're naked. And your boyfriend is still horny. He has plans. What are you thinking about?" he asked, with a shit-eating grin on his face.
"I was thinking how much I love you."
"I love you too, and my plan is to nurse you back to health through intense sex."
I laughed. To think this is the same Josh who had never been kissed and was embarrassed when he creamed in his jeans that night in the park. He had really shown his true self these last few weeks.
"I like that idea," I smiled, looking into his eyes. "And I'm up for that but I want to explain. I was thinking I love you so much and that you make me feel like nobody else… even Aaron."
"Oh Dan, you don't have to say that. Don't get me wrong, I can't tell you how good it makes me feel hearing that, but I know how much he meant to you. As long as you love me. And I know you do," he said, giving me a kiss.
"It's more than that. Part of me feels guilty for saying it, but it's how I feel. Aaron was my world. I know he'd want me to be happy. He told me that. Maybe it's what you and I have been through together. Aaron and I loved each other when we were kids. You and I are still kids in some people's eyes, but between what you've been through and what you and I have been through together, it makes it seem different. I can't explain it. Part of me does still feel guilty, but I'm happy too. I'm happy because I have you. I'll never forget him but you're my world now."
"Dan, don't over-think it. You still have Aaron. He's in your heart. I wouldn't want you to forget him. You learned how to love because of him. If he was here today you'd still have him and he'd still be your world. You'd probably be in Chicago and I'd still be with that shithead who wasn't even my father. I believe Aaron brought us together. That's what I told Jason in the hospital."
"You do? That's weird because I kinda think that too. Don't take this the wrong way but when I saw the video of you fighting Phil I wondered how you did it. I mean it was you and you've learned a lot, but to do that? I think he helped. The moves looked so much like him. I think he found out about you when he died and he's been looking over both of us, helping us. He wants us to be together."
"Well, if he is watching us then he's getting a show tonight. The shower was just a warm-up," Josh smiled. "I've got more planned."
"Remember, I'm hurt," I smiled.
"All you have to do is lay back and relax," he said giving me a kiss. "I've got this."
"You know, we were lucky," I smiled.
"How's that?"
"Scott didn't come out of his room when we walked across the hall. I know it was just a few feet but he does have uncanny timing. I can just imagine him catching us naked with our cocks both pointing straight out."
Josh laughed. "You think of the weirdest shit at times. Here we were being serious and you picture Scott catching us naked?"
"What can I say? Things just pop into my head sometimes."
"Oh, I plan to make things pop," he smiled, giving me another kiss. "And for the record, I don't think there is anything straight about our cocks. Now stop talking and get in bed. I have plans. Lay down and close your eyes."
"Why close my eyes?"
"Just do it. I want to surprise you. Don't open them until I tell you. I put together a playlist for tonight. I found some stuff online."
"I hope it's a long playlist," I smiled.
Josh laughed. "Just get in bed and keep your eyes closed. I'm watching you."
I thought it was cool Josh had put so much thought into tonight. It had been a tough week. I wouldn't recommend spending a week in one of those hospital beds. Especially when you're used to sleeping next to your boyfriend. It definitely got lonely. There also wasn't much privacy. I don't blame Josh for making me wait but it was frustrating if you know what I mean. Of course, it was frustrating to Josh too. I laughed to myself thinking how it wasn't like he wanted to wait if the look on his face and the bulge in his jeans were any indication.
I decided to play along. This was important to Josh. I don't want to sound conceited or anything but I know the pain he would have felt if I had died. It doesn't matter that we've only been together for a few months and not all our lives like Aaron and me, we love each other. Josh has had things tough for the last eight years and has just started finding happiness. While he wouldn't have to go back to his old life even if I had died, thinking about him feeling like I had for the last year made me determined to never leave his side. He is such a good person and as long as he wanted me then I am definitely going to be right beside him.
I did as he wanted, lying down and closing my eyes. I heard Josh moving around near my desk, powering on my PC and starting his playlist.
"What songs did you pick?"
"Just some I thought would be special for tonight, that would make tonight special.
"What else are you doing? I'm cold. Come over here and warm me up."
"Bullshit," he laughed, as I felt the bed move and Josh straddle me. "But don't worry, I'm going to keep you warm."
He was careful not to put his weight on me. I don't think it would have hurt but Josh was being extra careful. I felt him lean down and then his lips were on mine.
"Keep your eyes closed. Just listen to the music. And yes, it's a long play-list! Good thing you've been resting all week in that hospital bed. We'll take it easy but you've made me wait a week," he smiled, leaning down to kiss me again.
"I'm going to do something. I may surprise you but promise me you'll keep your eyes closed. No matter what," he said.
"I promise, but you're dead if there's a crowd watching us when I open them."
"Don't worry. There's no chance of that. It's just you and me."
What he did surprised me. I definitely wasn't expecting it. First, he straddled my stomach being careful not to put his weight on my side and rubbed my chest telling me to relax, but that's not what surprised me. It's what came next! He sat up straighter and turned so he could put his hand on my cock but his hand wasn't empty. Somehow between massaging my chest and moving his hand he had filled his palm with lube. I felt it as he slid his hand over me making my cock slick.
"Josh? What are you doing?" I couldn't help it. I opened my eyes.
"It's time Dan. I want you in me. I almost lost you, and if I had, then I'd never have experienced this with you. Don't worry, I'll be careful. You don't have to exert yourself. I'll do all the work," he said, rubbing his fingers against his ass. "I'm just going to sit back and do this. Please Dan. I want this."
"We could do this another night. Some night when I'm 100%."
"We will," he smiled. "This won't be the last time. That's for sure. I've been thinking about this all week. I've been thinking about this moment. I want this. Please Dan."
"Have you ever had anything in you? It doesn't just pop in. Everything I've read says there is some pain, especially at first."
"I know. I've read how to do this too. I've also read any pain turns to immense pleasure. It'll be fine Dan. The 'how-to' I read said this is one of the better positions because I can control things. Please?"
"What about a condom? Are you sure?"
"I'm sure Dan. I don't want anything between us. I want you inside me. There's no reason for one is there?"
Of course there wasn't but before I could answer Josh sat back and I felt the head of my cock slide between his ass cheeks and press against him. Let me tell you it's nothing like all those internet stories where one guy's cock just slides into the other guy the first time and its pure bliss. At least it wasn't in our case. Not at first anyway. We were clumsy. First, Josh was at the wrong angle. When he pushed down my cock just slipped up his crack against his balls and flattened between us.
"Let me try again," he said. "Hold it while I sit back. That's what it said online."
I wasn't sure about the whole thing but it was what he wanted. He lifted himself up and repositioned himself over me. This time I held my cock as he pushed down. I admit it felt good. The head of my cock was slick from the lube and pushing between his ass cheeks. It still wasn't easy.
"Take your time," I said when he let out a little cry. "There's no hurry. Get used to it."
"It hurts. They said it could be painful at first but God, I don't know if I can do this."
"Do you want to wait? We can. We never have to do this if you don't want to. It's not mandatory."
"No!!! I want this. Just give me a minute."
"Turn around. Let me try something."
"Are you sure? I thought this would be the easiest way. You're hurt. I thought you could just lay there and I could do all the work."
"I'm fine," I said. "Turn around."
Josh lifted his left leg across my chest while doing the same with his right so that he was straddling my chest the other way with his back towards me. I lifted my head and gently kissed his ass. The lube from our first attempt getting on my lips.
"You need to buy better tasting lube," I said grabbing whatever was handy and wiping him off. "That's better. God, I love your ass Josh. Let me see if I can help you get ready."
First, I pulled his ass towards me and lifted my head. I put my hands on his cheeks to spread them. "Oh yeah," I moaned as I put my face against him, pushing my tongue between his smooth, cute cheeks. I could have done that all night and been completely satisfied. The music was playing and it was like I was in my own little world, licking him, first back and forth and then around in circles. Some people may think putting your tongue near someone's asshole is gross but they're wrong. To me, it's one of the most erotic and intimate things I can imagine. If I could. I would have driven my tongue into him so far it would be coming out his mouth. Believe me, I tried.
"Now let's try this," I said reaching for the tube of lube putting some on my finger and some on his ass before gently pushing my finger against him.
"How's this?" I asked as my forefinger pushed into him.
"That was no problem," he said. "And it feels good… really good."
"Good," I smiled.
I had to admit having my finger in his ass made me super hot. I pushed in as deep as I could, sliding it in and out and around in circles. I pulled it all the way out and then pushed it back in trying to be gentle but at the same time forceful. Aaron and I had never done this, and while I have tried putting my finger inside me, I was never able to get it very far. With Josh, I had my entire index finger inside him. I could feel the inside of his ass, the warmth, the moistness, everything. I don't know if I hit his prostate or not. I must have because at one point he jumped and let out what could only be described as a pleasurable moan. Then he started rocking rocking back and forth.
"You ready for another?" I asked.
"Mmmmm… hmmmm," he said pushing back. This time I let both my index finger and middle finger sink into him. "Ohhhhh Dan," he moaned.
I didn't even have to move my hand. Josh was rocking back and forth on my fingers pushing them deep into him and then sliding them back out. I didn't even tell him when I added a third finger to the mix. One time he moved forward I brought three fingers together just as he pushed back. All three fingers entered with ease and Josh moaned with delight.
"Do you want to try again?" I asked. At first I had been reluctant to do this tonight but now I couldn't wait to get my cock inside him. I had waited a long time wanting this to be special, but with Josh it was special. He wanted me inside him and I definitely wanted to be inside him.
"Oh yeah," he smiled, turning himself back around. "I love you Dan."
Josh turned around and once more positioned himself over me. I watched his face as he held my cock and lined it up. This time the head pushed through his sphincter entering him. Our eyes met and he smiled.
"Oh Dan… finally. I've been thinking about this all week."
He smiled and lowered himself onto my cock. It was incredible. I loved a warm mouth on my cock but this was that times a thousand. Josh's sphincter muscles still tried to close on me holding me tight as he slid down my shaft. The warmth that engulfed me was beyond description. It was like nothing else existed, just Josh and me.
I put my good arm around him and pulled him down. "Oh Josh," I moaned. "Come here. I need to hold you. I need to feel you. You feel incredible. I've never felt anything like this. Soooo Gooood."
"I've wanted this Dan. I thought I lost you and didn't want to wait a second longer. Do you know how hard it's been to wait all day since you got home? I wanted to pull you upstairs the minute we walked in. Cum for me Dan. Fill me with part of you. I want you inside me forever."
"Ohhhhh Jos... Ohhhhhh… Fuck."
"Yup," he smiled "Fuck me Dan. Do it. Fill me. Soooooooo good."
"Cum with me," I moaned, putting one hand around his cock and his arms around me. "I love you Josh," I said stroking his cock as he moved up and down. "I'm going to cum."
"Me too," he cried putting his lips on mine kissing me hard. I felt his body shake just as I knew I was going past that point of no return.
"Oh Josh,,, Ohhhhhhhhhhhh"
"Oh Dan… Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh."
That's as far as we got as we simultaneously crossed that line. I felt my cum shooting into him while his shot between us filling whatever cavity existed with his own warm, creamy liquid. It was good to be young. It didn't matter that we had just both cum in the shower. We both shot and shot and shot while holding each other, trying to pull the other inside us.
"Don't move," I said as we finally came back to earth. "I want to hold you and feel you against me. I love you Josh, so much. That was incredible. Thank you."
"No, thank you. I've wanted this all week. I almost lost you Dan. I never want to lose you. Please say it again."
I smiled and kissed him. "Always and forever Josh. You and me. Me and you."
"Always and forever," he moaned holding me.
We stayed like that lost in thought listening to the music. "Inside Of Love" by Nada Surf came up next. That was appropriate. Neither of us said anything. We didn't have to. We just enjoyed the afterglow of sharing our love. Josh didn't even move and my cock was still in his ass. I think he was afraid it would pop out if he moved.
"Think we can sleep like this?" he asked.
"I'd like to but I don't think you'd be very comfortable."
"That didn't hurt you did it?"
I laughed. "If that was hurt then I'm ready for you to hurt me some more."
"Really?" he asked sitting up causing my cock to sink into him again. "I'm up for round three."
"I see that," I smiled.
"Let me go get a towel," Josh said, after we finished. My stomach and chest was covered with Josh's cum.
"I hope it has healing qualities," I smiled as Josh got up. It was funny watching him check the hall before running across to the bathroom.
He came back with a warm washcloth and cleaned off my stomach.
"So did you enjoy your welcome home present?" he smiled, as he crawled into bed beside me. "I was worried we'd rip your stitches out or something but I couldn't wait. I've been thinking about that all week. I didn't want to wait any longer. I'm sorry if I rushed things."
"Josh, I'm glad you did. We waited long enough. I would have just kept saying I wanted it to be special when you made it very special. Let's wait on round three though. I want to snuggle. Plus, next time I want to feel you inside me."
"You're sure you want that? I bet everyone who knows us thinks you're the top and I'm the bottom. I've never really thought about topping."
"Don't you want to?"
"I just never thought about it. Whenever I jerked off thinking about it I was always on the receiving end in my mind. Plus, it's still hard to imagine you want that."
"Josh, I love you. I want it. I want to feel what you felt when I was in you. I want to see the look on your face when you're feeling what I felt. I want you to feel it. It's incredible. I just can't do it tonight."
"I love you Dan. I'll try but not until you're ready. You're in no shape for it now. We should get some sleep. The more sleep you get the faster you'll recover and then we can decide."
I just turned and looked into his eyes. Even though it was dark and that affected how much I could see, I could definitely see enough. Perhaps memories imprinted on my brain from all the other times I looked into his eyes were filling in any gaps caused by the darkness, but I felt so at peace. Josh was in my arms, or arm, as the case may be. His naked body was against me. It was warm and smooth and I could feel his breathing. His chest going up and down against mine. Yes, I'd felt it earlier but then it was coupled with lust, with hormones. Now it was contentment.
I couldn't get enough of his eyes. They were so compelling. There was so much behind them. Things I saw that called to me. Things he showed all the time through his actions, but also things he didn't see in himself. He just didn't see how good a person he was. I'm sure a lot of that was how he's lived the last eight years. He didn't have the love and support most people do, yet he managed to retain only the good inside him. It's no wonder he had self-doubt given what he'd been through. I could lose myself looking into his eyes.
"Dan???"
"Huh??? What?"
"What are you thinking? You kind of zoned out."
I smiled. "I was thinking how perfect you are. How happy you make me. How I want to look into your eyes and feel like this forever. How I'm so glad we moved here. How I'm so glad you sat down next to me that day. How I'm totally and absolutely in love with you. And did I mention how perfect you are? Absolutely perfect," I said, giving him a kiss. "Plus, you're adorable." Kiss. "Cute." Kiss. "Captivating." Kiss. "And sexy as hell." Kiss.
"I could go on all night if you want," I said, when he just stared at me not saying a word.
"I think you took some of your drugs when I wasn't looking."
"Stop deflecting," I smiled. "Admit it, you're fantastic."
"Deflecting? Where'd you learn that word?"
"My mother's a shrink and you did it again. Just look into my eyes and repeat after me. I'm fantastic."
"You're fantastic," he smiled.
"Asshole," I laughed.
"What's wrong with my asshole?" Josh grinned. "You weren't complaining a few minutes ago. I'll say it when you look into my eyes and you say it too."
"Point taken," I smiled. "Just accept I think you're fantastic. And I love your asshole. Does it want a kiss goodnight too?"
"Nope, it's fine, and I'm too comfortable to move. I just want to stay like this all night long."
"That works for me," I said pulling him as close as possible. He was on my good side and he put his head against my shoulder when I pulled him close. Before long his breathing changed to a slow, gentle rhythm and I felt him relax against me. I soon joined him in dreamland.
Josh
I woke up early the next morning but didn't even open my eyes. I just wanted to lay against Dan, feeling him against me, his chest going up and down as he breathed in his sleep. My thoughts went back to the night before. It was even better than I'd hoped or imagined. To say I was horny would be an understatement. A week is a long time to go when you're sixteen. I still can't believe Dan went nearly a year. I guess he really didn't but he did tell me he didn't even jerk off much in the year after Aaron died.
Last night definitely wasn't jerking off though. It was also more than just being horny. We'd finally done it, gone all the way. At least I think that was all the way. I can't imagine anything further. I hope I made it special enough. I'd been worried Dan would say no because of his injuries but if my ass being a little sore this morning was any indication then I had nothing to worry about. I couldn't wait to do it again. I know he wants me inside him too. Hopefully I can do that. I think I can. Ever since I realized I was gay, I've always imagined myself being on the receiving end of things. I've just never thought of me as anything but, especially with someone like Dan. He says we're equals though, and that he wants me in him as well. I smiled thinking how he'd called me perfect, sexy, as well as fantastic. I'm not sure I agree with him but it was nice to hear. How did I get so lucky to find him?
Maybe I was only half awake when I first started thinking. I was focused on Dan's skin against mine with my head on his chest. I hadn't realized how bright the sun was which was strange since it was nearly Thanksgiving. Yeah, we get sun in November, but it felt like it was streaming through the windows like it was the middle of summer. It felt warm on my face.
To say I was confused when I opened my eyes would also be an understatement. Dan was next to me but...
"What the fuck? Dan!!!! Wake up. Where are we?"
"Huh??? Josh, it's early. Go back to sleep."
"No, no Dan. Wake up. Look at this. What's going on?"
Dan opened his eyes and looked around. It took a few seconds for things to register, but he just smiled. "Cool," he said. "Or as Scott would say … waayyyy cooooolllll. Look at that."
"I am looking at it. It's a waterfall. How did we get here?"
"It's not a waterfall. It's THE waterfall. Unless we're both hallucinating… come on."
'THE waterfall?'
Dan stood up and took my hand. It was the first time I noticed I had shorts on. Dan did too. He pulled me along a path.
"This is so cool. I can't believe this," he said as we got to a clearing. "Look..."
"It's a cabin. That still doesn't explain where we are."
He smiled. "Think Josh. The waterfalls? I told you about the cabin. The cabin that Aaron built????"
"What? In your dream?"
"It wasn't a dream. I told you. I don't know what it was but it wasn't a dream. It had to be real, the in-between. And we're here. Come on," he said, pulling me towards the cabin.
"The what?"
"I told you. Come on. If I'm right then there's someone here you need to meet."
Dan pulled me onto the porch and opened the door. Shock didn't begin to describe it. This couldn't be real. I didn't know what it was but it couldn't be real. I had to be dreaming, but this seemed so real. It was also different from a typical dream. Usually, dreams didn't make much sense and you didn't really think of your real-life. In this case I could tell you all about my life, my father, my mother dying, the last eight years, meeting Dan, meeting my birth parents. That's what was real. I don't know what this is. Why would I remember all that in a dream? Dan just stood there smiling.
"You should see the look on your face. Go on, say hello. Say hello to your brother."
Dan put his arm around me because I was about to collapse. I looked at him, then at guy who looked just like me cooking bacon at the stove, then back at Dan.
"What? My brother? What is this?"
"It's okay Josh. Don't try to understand. Just accept it. I don't know how he makes this happen but somehow he does. This is real Josh. This is your brother. This is Aaron."
"Aaron? How?"
Whoever it was, he smiled. "Yes, Chris. It's me. Forgive me if I can't call you Josh. I just can't. Now come in here. I've been waiting for you. You finally did it, huh?"
"Did what?"
"You know. It, the big it," he smiled. "Something Dan and I never got to do. Now get in here. I'll explain. I was just making breakfast. Eggs? Bacon?"
I still thought I was dreaming but I sat down at the table as Aaron poured some coffee and dished up three plates of bacon and eggs. I had to admit, they smelled good and I was hungry. I dug in.
Aaron laughed. "Sex must make you hungry."
"Aaron, will you explain what the fuck is going on? How do you know what we did? You said you couldn't see things that closely."
He just smiled. "I can't and it's simple. It's all part of my trial."
"Your trial?" asked Dan.
"Yes, I don't expect you to understand. You will. Some day you'll both have trials of your own but not for a long time. Mine was to fix what was wrongly done sixteen years ago. Chris was taken from my parents. I got to fix that. I didn't start out to bring you together. That was a bonus. And since everything worked out I'm getting to meet my brother. Now eat up. We don't have all day."
I didn't care if it was a dream or not. I might as well enjoy it. And if it was a dream I'm going to do what Dan and I did last night more often. It was definitely weird eating breakfast with Aaron but after a while it just seemed like the three of us talking like old friends. I kept looking at Aaron. I liked him but beyond that there was an instant connection. He felt like my brother and that made me both happy and sad. It felt good but I also knew this was how it was supposed to be growing up. We should have been having breakfast together every day. I don't know how Dan would have fit into that picture but I guess if he was with Aaron and I didn't know what I'd be missing it would be okay. I was cheated out of that. We all were.
"You okay Josh?" asked Dan.
I realized I had zoned out and smiled. "Well, I woke up not where I was expecting to wake up. I'm sitting here eating breakfast with my brother, who, a week ago, I didn't even know was my brother. And… a brother who just happens to be your dead boyfriend. I'm a little freaked out, but yeah, I'm good."
"I know it's a lot to take in," said Aaron. "Why don't you and I take a walk after breakfast. Being brothers was stolen from us. I wish we had more time but this won't last long. Soon you and Dan will have to go back and I'll go to wherever I'm supposed to go now that I've completed my trial, but let's go have a brotherly walk. Do you mind Dan?"
"Go. I'm not going anywhere, at least unless you have more surprises. There are no more surprises are there Aaron?"
"No, you're good. We'll be back in a while."
Neither Aaron nor I said anything as we walked towards the falls. I didn't know what to say, not that I didn't want to talk to him, but what does one say to a what? A spirit?
"I'm sorry Chris. I'm sorry for how you life was. It's going to be better now. I promise. Mom and Dad love you. They have to be ecstatic. Plus Dan loves you. That's obvious. I also know what's inside you, things you don't even see, but I have an advantage. I can cheat. Dan can't but he sees those same things. Trust me."
"Thanks. Sometimes I have some self-confidence issues. It's hard."
"I know, and you can always talk to me. I'll listen. You're my brother. Now tell me, how was last night?" My face flushed but Aaron just smiled. "You know, he and I never did that. I regret that and admit I did think about it when he was here, but it wouldn't have been right. You know he and I didn't do anything, right?"
"I know. He told me nothing happened and I believe him… and you."
"He loves you Chris. I wouldn't have done that to you and he wouldn't either. We just said good-bye."
"Do you want to? I could take a walk while you and he..."
"Chris, thank you, but no. I don't want that and neither does he. Ask him, he'll tell you. I know you'd do that. I appreciate it, but I want to remember things how they are now. How they're supposed to be."
"I should thank you, for all of this, but also because I know you helped in my fight with Phil. He should have kicked my ass."
"That was fun. When I saw how he treated you, how he treated everyone, I wanted to kick his ass. I can't wait to see what he has for his trial."
"My life didn't always suck. My mom, or adoptive mom, loved me. Things were good then. It was only after she died when things went bad."
"I know, but that's in the past. Look toward the future. Just do me a favor. Be good to Dan. We give each other shit but I love him. He may act tough and be overprotective, but he loves you. He'd give his life for you. But he needs you too."
"I will. I promise."
By that time we had reached the waterfall. It was a sunny day. Under normal circumstances it would have been a good day to hang out, to go swimming, and to climb on the rocks.
"This is where it happened isn't it?"
"Yes, see that ledge up there? We used to jump off that. I was climbing those rocks just to the right. Dan was watching. I know he blames himself. He thinks if he'd followed me then I wouldn't have turned to give him grief, but who knows what would have happened. I had already started climbing again before I fell. I was just careless. The rocks were wet and I lost my grip. I slipped. It was as simple as that."
"He still blames himself."
"I know, but that's crap. Don't let him do that."
"It would have been great growing up with you as a brother. We were cheated."
"Yes, we were, but there's nothing we can do about that. I've done what I could to make things right. And don't worry about me, I'm fine. Life doesn't end when the body dies. We still exist and things are good. I'm just glad I got to meet you. I love you Chris," he said, giving me a hug.
"I love you too," I said, as we held each other. It wasn't the same type of love I felt for Dan. This was brotherly love. It was what I should have had all my life. To have it now, if only for a few minutes here, will be something I'll always have with me.
"I hate to say this but we should head back. Our time together is getting short."
Dan was sitting on the porch when we got back. I saw him smiling as Aaron and I walked up the path. If this was a dream it was like no other dream I'd ever had.
"You guys didn't have any kinky sex did you?" he asked, laughing.
"You haven't changed. We're not having a threesome either. No matter how much you want to. What we can do is play frisbee."
"I have a better idea," he said reaching into his pocket and pulling out his phone. "I want pictures."
Aaron laughed. "Dan, I don't think that will work. Remember, you're not really physically here. You're still in bed in your room."
"Maybe, but I've been thinking. We were naked in bed. When we woke up here we had shorts on. I can understand that but why did whoever, or whatever, brought us here put my cellphone in my pocket. It's not like there's cell service here. The only other thing I can think of is pictures. We can at least try."
Even though Aaron said it wouldn't work we spent the next hour taking all kinds of pictures, pictures of Aaron and me together, pictures of the three of us, pictures of Dan and Aaron and pictures of Aaron alone. We knew it was pointless but we had fun. Dan even convinced Aaron to make a video. A message to his parents. Dan told him to say some things they'd know only he could say, things I wouldn't know or even he knew. Aaron was reluctant, but made it as if he believed they'd actually get to see it.
He also made private videos for Dan and me. He didn't want either of us to hear what he had to say so Dan recorded what he wanted to say to me and I recorded his video for Dan. I couldn't help but cry. He may be okay how things are, but it really sunk in that I'd lost him too.
Afterwards, we just sat on the porch talking. Dan and Aaron reminisced about things that had happened growing up. I felt a little sad that I hadn't experienced any of it, but it was fun listening as well. It was obvious Dan wanted to ask something. Aaron knew it too.
"What's wrong Dan?"
"Nothing. I, ah, just have a question. I guess a couple of questions."
"Shoot. I'll answer if I can."
"Have you met him?"
"Met who?"
"You know… God."
"Dan, it doesn't work that way. I can't explain it in terms you'll understand. Don't think of it as an all-knowing, all-powerful dude out there who controls everything. That's a manifestation. It's more than that. Think of it more as an all-knowing, all-powerful force. Think Star Wars times a thousand. Not the dark side's force. The good stuff."
"Are we right?"
"What do you mean?"
"Being gay? Is it really how we're made? I've always believed that, and I do, but is that right or is it just something we say to make us feel better?"
"You never have asked the easy ones," he smiled. "Do you think all this would have happened if we're wrong? You trust me, right? I'm telling you I'm not in purgatory. I didn't want to die but I'm not unhappy either. Things are good and I was gay. I am gay. I can't give you a definitive yes or no. It's not that one doesn't exist. I just can't tell you. Look around though. Look at what's happened and follow your heart. And love my brother... or else."
"No problem there," he said smiling at me. "Far be it from me to argue with the force."
We spent the rest of the morning, if it was indeed morning, just talking. Aaron asked Dan if he'd decided what he wanted to do in the future. Even though he hadn't, it made me feel good when he talked in terms of him and me.
Finally, Aaron said it was time. Our time together was over. Maybe this was just a dream, even though it's not like any dream I remember. Usually dreams are disjointed. They really don't make sense. Whatever this was felt like the three of us had spent the morning together. We stood up and hugged. Dan hugged Aaron, I hugged Aaron, the three of us hugged each other.
"I have one more gift," Aaron said as things started to fade. The last thing I remember was him touching Dan's chest and saying 'be well'.
The next thing I remembered was waking up next to Dan. We were back in bed, naked, and cuddled together. Well, back in bed, if in fact we'd ever left. Dan was still asleep and we were pretty much in the same position we'd been when we went to sleep. Dan's arm was around me and I was lying against him.
I laid there feeling Dan's chest gently go up and down as he breathed and thinking about last night. Was it real? The sex was definitely real. I knew the sex was real because I felt dried cum on my stomach. Plus while my ass didn't hurt, I definitely felt something. I smiled thinking we hadn't cleaned off as well as we thought and definitely needed another shower. Thinking about a shower made me smile too.
The sex wasn't a question. It was what happened afterward. It had to be a dream. Aaron is dead. I know people talk about séances to talk to the dead but I've never taken that stuff seriously. Talk to the dead? Have breakfast with your boyfriend and his dead boyfriend who happens to be your brother? Get real. It felt real though. It felt really real.
"Dan, wake up. What happened?"
"Good morning to you too. I hoped to be woken up with a kiss, not by being shaken awake."
"Yeah. Yeah. Here's your kiss," I said giving him an abrupt kiss. I knew he was joking and I wasn't pissed but I really wanted to talk about… I don't even know what to call it. "Did it really happen? Was it real?"
"Did you have a good dream?" he asked, smiling. "I've heard sex can do that to you."
"Was it real?"
"The sex? It was for me."
"Don't be a dick. You know what I mean. I can tell by the way you're smiling. It was really real?"
"I think so. I told you about the in-between and being with Aaron while I was unconscious. I gave up trying to explain it. Somehow it happened. You got to meet your brother. You got to talk to him and hug him. I know it pretty much goes against your entire sense of reality. Don't try to figure it out. Just accept it."
"Wow," I said. "I thought I was crazy. I didn't know if I dreamed it all, but knew it was more than that. You don't really think of your waking life in a dream. Not like that at least. It was weird. I feel kinda disoriented."
"I know what you mean. That's how I felt when I woke up in the cafeteria after first seeing you. It wasn't quite as bad in the hospital because it had happened before. Now I just accept it. I like knowing Aaron isn't truly gone. It's not like we can get together any time we want, but to know he's out there and happy is comforting."
"I'm glad I got to meet him, even though it makes me sad too. It would have been great to grow up together. I missed a lot."
"I know, but don't think like that. We can't change the past. It's now that's important. It's now and our hopes for the future, and my hope is you and I being together until it's our turns to do our trials… and beyond."
"I love you. What do you want to do today?"
Dan laughed and reached for my cock. "How about more sex? Remember, now is what's important."
"There is more to now than sex," I smiled putting my arms around him.
"That's later. Now is for sex. I want you."
"Hey!!!!!"
"What?"
"Look!!!!! Your bandages… they're gone!!! And your bruises, there's no sign of them. Do you think Aaron did that too? How do you feel?"
Dan sat up and stretched. Then he got out of bed and stretched some more. It looked like nothing had ever happened. Then he did a couple of kicks at an imaginary target."
"I feel great," he said jumping back into bed and grabbing me.
"This is incredible. Your parents are going to freak."
"You know what this means?"
Of course I knew what it meant but I didn't know what he was thinking even though I should have guessed. The smirk on his face should have been a dead giveaway.
"What?" I asked.
"It means you can do unto me as I did unto you."
I laughed. "I don't think that's what people mean by the 'Golden Rule' and while I'd like to, I really need a shower. You do too."
"Mmmmm, that works for me. Let's shower and then sex."
"Let's not push our luck. I heard your parents get up. Mine too… God, that still feels strange… Anyway, they may be accepting but they're going to want to see us too. How about I go take a quick shower and then you take one. Otherwise, we'll never get downstairs."
"There you go trying to be sensible. Alright. Go take your shower. Leave me here. It's okay. I guess I can wait," he said sighing.
"You poor baby. Don't worry. It'll be worth the wait," I smiled, giving him a kiss before getting out of bed.
Dan
"You should put something on," I said, as Josh walked to the door. He was obviously still naked. It was also obvious he'd forced himself to think logically when he said we should wait… if you know what I mean.
I laid in bed thinking about what had happened too. Not just last night but the last year. If someone told me something like this had happened to them I would have thought they were crazy. All I could think was 'thank you Aaron' as I laid there though.
I reached for my phone when it sounded indicating I had a text. I had forgotten about the pictures we'd taken while we were what… with Aaron? No matter what I'd said to Josh, I still had trouble wrapping my head around that.
I didn't check the picture though. Josh and I should do that together. Instead, I checked the text. I actually had two texts. One, from a number I didn't recognize but immediately knew who had sent it. He must have sent it during the night. It made me breathe a sigh of relief.
>> thank you dan. can't talk now but will. hope you're okay. i've been worried. love, danny.
I wanted to text back but didn't know if I should. I assumed he'd have turned off notifications but this was a step forward. I didn't want to make it a step back. I'd wait until he got back to me.
The other text was current. It put a smile on my face too.
Nick>> dan thank you. danny texted last night. i have some info. it's not good but it's better than not knowing. can we talk?
Dan>> just woke up. danny left me a text during the night but didn't say anything. yes, let's get together. how about we meet for lunch? i'd say earlier but some crazy shit is happening around here. i'll explain later. how about 1?
Nick>> ty. that would be great. i'm scared but knowing is better than notification
Dan>> I know. how about we pick you up? your dad will be okay with that won't he?
Nick>> I think so. let me check. brb.
"Who are you talking to?" asked Josh when he came back into the room. He definitely looked good.
"Nick. I said we'd pick him up for lunch. I hope that's okay. We heard from Danny."
"That's great. Of course it's okay. What did Danny say?"
"Nothing to me. Just that he got the phone. Nick knows more though."
Nick>> he's good. see you at 1. thanks.
"You'd better take your shower. Our parents are going to want some face time. How are we going to explain your miraculous recovery? And don't say the benefit of sex."
I laughed. "I think it's called the joy of sex, or more specifically, the joy of gay sex. How about the truth?"
"You want to tell my parents their dead son healed you?"
"Well, I guess it doesn't sound so good when you put it like that, but what should we say?"
"Maybe nothing. How about we play dumb and just say we're as shocked as them. Let's think about how we want to tell them about everything else. Have you checked the pictures yet?"
"I was waiting for you. You want to do it now?"
"Do you?"
"Sit down," I said, sitting up.
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