I just don't know

I want him away,
I want him lost,
I can't seem to stand the sound of his voice,
I love him,
I need him,
I just can't seem to bear him,
I want him gone,
I want him destroyed,
I can't even look at his face anymore,
I miss him,
I want him,
I love him so much,
I want him dead,
I love him alive,
I can't understand these feelings inside,
I just don't know.

This poem is copyright 2003 Petyr, to whom comments may be sent.