Puppy For Sale
Chapter 47 - My Feelings Divide
For some reason I just couldn't wake up today. Steven's alarm had gone off what seemed like ages ago now and I was still lying there on my back, my eyes closed. Dave walked into the bedroom and pulled up the blind in our room letting the crisp autumn sun drench the walls, carpet and ME!
"Hey, what are you doing?" I groaned.
"You need to get up Jensen, we have school soon and you aren't even dressed let alone fed."
I sighed and ripped back the covers on my bed before getting into a seated position. "God, I feel so tired," I muttered, rubbing my eyes.
"I'll see you downstairs," was all Dave replied, walking past my half naked body, save for some tight boxer briefs.
The mood in the house had got slightly better since Dave and I had agreed on our 'break.' Mum and Dad had kindly dusted down and old camp style bed and placed it between mine and Steven's beds so Dave had somewhere to sleep. I had offered to have it myself and give my own bed up for Dave, seeing as I was the one that was causing the separate bed issue in the first place. But, after a fifteen minute debate, Dave insisted he have it and that was that.
I had hoped that I might feel something not having him in my bed with me. Something like loss or a missing feeling, but there was nothing. In fact, I would even go so far as to say, it was nice to have my bed back.
My feelings towards Dave were, if I'm honest, just settling back into friendship. Sure, he still looked handsome and had a great body, but I had no desire to have sex with him any longer, and that was a strange thing to come to terms with. Dave on the other hand was subtly keeping up the pressure for us to give things another go, but underneath I was starting to look for ways to tell him that was not going to be the case.
I got downstairs to find everyone barring mum, at the kitchen table, munching away on their various breakfast food. I must have looked like a wreck as mum came over and started to straighten out my blazer and tie which I had made no effort to do.
"Sit down honey and I'll fetch you some toast," she said, finishing her makeover on me. I smiled sleepily and complied with her request.
"Man you look like crap this morning," Steven commented. "Have you even slept?"
"That's just the thing, yeah I have. Guess it's just one of those mornings," I replied, rubbing my eyes and yawning for the fiftieth time since waking up.
"Do you feel ok, Puppy?" dad asked, giving me a concerned look.
"Yeah, I guess."
Dad nodded and went back to his food. "By the way boys, your mother and I would like to discuss something with you tonight as we have agreed on moving house." Max declared. Everyone stopped what they were doing and looked up at him.
"What, you've found a place?" Steven asked.
"We have sweetheart, and you are all going to love it," mum replied to him, confidently.
"Where is it?" I asked, as she placed two slices of toast in front of me, spread with butter.
"A few miles east Puppy. Don't worry, you will both continue to go to the same school, in fact, as far as I understand it, you will actually be closer to it, just the other side that's all." Dad said, getting up from his chair. "Right boys, I gotta run, have a good day at school, see you all tonight."
We said our goodbyes as dad kissed mum on the lips and left the kitchen for work. Mum came and sat down in his place probably expecting at least one of us would have questions. Dave was particularly quiet, which was something she commented on while Steven and I chatted about how to transport two chickens from one place to another. Steven found it an excuse to make fun of them, while I was very worried about Annie and Clarabelle.
"Almost the end of your first week at school Bonehead, you seem to be doing ok?" Steven remarked as the three of us made the walk to school.
"Yeah, I think I am, and I love my Maths teacher."
Steven laughed at my comment. "You ok Dave, you seem quiet this morning."
"I want my boyfriend back," he replied, looking at me while he said it.
"Yeah, so when are you two gonna sort your shit out and get back together?" Steven asked, which I really wished he hadn't.
I shrugged not really knowing how to answer. "We'll see how it goes," was all I could finally respond with. Dave just looked at the floor.
As we approached the school gates I could see Hunter standing outside leaning against the wall. It was really cold today and yet there he was in just an un-tucked shirt and tie, smoking a cigarette. A wave of excitement went through me as his eyes locked onto mine. He nodded at me and smiled, before dropping his butt on the floor and stubbing it out.
"I hope he doesn't come over to us," Dave said, as we walked through the gates. I didn't say anything.
"Hunter is cool Dave, and like Jensen said, there is nothing going on, so I don't know why you let him bother you." Steven reassured Dave as we walked towards Billy and Jessie who were chatting over by the main doors.
I looked back, scanning the area for Hunter before finding him talking to a couple of girls by one of the large trees in the school yard. His arms were folded and he looked trim and hot. Again, I must have got his attention because he flicked out his chin to acknowledge me. I smiled like a stupid idiot which was something he obviously found endearing as he once again smiled back at me.
"If there is nothing going on why do you two keep staring at each other lately?" Dave asked, appearing in front of me. My face went to one of seriousness. Even though I hadn't done anything wrong I somehow felt guilty regardless.
"We don't stare at each other, Dave, he was just nodding at me to say he had seen me."
"He did that outside the gates, what's the need to do it again?"
"Oh Dave, I don't know, do we really have to be having this conversation, I thought you were supposed to be trying to change this whole jealousy thing."
Dave shook his head and walked off, something I was glad about. His Big Brother surveillance on me was starting to become repressive, not to mention annoying.
The bell for registration sounded and we all made our way into school to our tutor rooms. I left the others and continued down a few corridors until I reached Mr Dawson's room, finding my familiar seat. I was soon joined by Hunter who squeezed my shoulder before sitting down.
"Hey, I've missed you," he whispered, leaning towards me. I grinned bashfully. "You smell nice today as well," he added.
I cleared my throat. "I um… I missed you too. What have you been up to?"
"Since yesterday?" he laughed. "Not a lot, just watched some TV and then daydreamed about you."
"Hunter, stop it, you are making me blush," I said, smirking at him.
"So, will you go out with me?" he asked, fluttering his eye lids.
"Hunter you ask me every morning and you know I can't."
"Aww, I'm really hoping one day that will change, so I'll just keep asking until then," He said, playfully, nudging his arm into mine.
The truth was, I desperately wanted to say yes to him, he was so calm, relaxing and playful. His personality was like a magnet to me. He was strong, his voice deep and commanding, at yet he displayed a gentleness that told me if I did go out with him he would look after me.
I felt so torn, because here was a guy that I knew would be totally different from Dave in the sense that I would be able to keep my life, and as much as I felt annoyed Dave was an obstacle to Hunter and I getting together, I still felt sorry for him.
"Hey, on another subject, would you like to come to a drag racing event with me? My brother will be competing and I was going to just go on my own to watch but, well you know, I'd really like it if you would join me… just as friends of course."
"Wow, erm, well that's really nice of you, I… I would love… hang on, what's drag racing?" I asked, raising a brow. Hunter burst out laughing and banged his hand on the desk before explaining it to me.
"So what do you think, sound like a fun day out?"
"Yeah, I've never seen anything like that before, but I'd need to get permission… oh God!"
"What… what's up?" he asked.
"Dave, I'll have to tell Dave."
"Will he have a problem with it?"
"Uh, yeah, it will automatically mean I am cheating on him if I go, you see, that's how his mind works."
"Oh, listen I'm sorry, I didn't think. I don't want you to get into any bother by going. I can see it's a stressful situation," Hunter said, thoughtfully.
I felt my heart sink. "I'll see what I can do; I really would like to go."
"Would you like me to talk to him about stuff, would that help?"
"No Hunter, its fine, I really don't want to involve you in this saga."
"Hey, erm, before Dawson gets here, I just want you to know that… well if things work out with you two then yeah I'll be sad and all, but I'll accept it. I really like you Jensen, as in REALLY like you, but I'm not going to be an asshole and try and wreck your relationship with Dave if there is a chance of it working out."
I could have hugged and kissed him right there. It was only the fact that the class was almost full of our fellow students that I didn't. The statement made by Hunter was a million miles away from the ones given by Steven and Dave on separate occasions. Steven warned me about ditching Dave to be with Hunter, saying that once me and Hunter had had sex that he probably wouldn't want to know anymore, because that's how most guys minds work. Dave had gone one step further and said that Hunter had a really bad reputation for being a playboy, something which I had not seen in him since I started at school. Dave's comment? I just wondered if it had been made up to put me off him.
"I don't know what to say, I really want to be mature about this, but…"
"Just say what you feel."
"You really care how I feel?" I asked, causing a strange look to form on his face.
"Care? Of course I care, why would you ask that?"
"I dunno, it was a stupid comment. I'm flattered you like me, and yeah I am really attracted to you, so much so it hurts in here," I replied, rubbing my chest. "I'm not just attracted to your features, but also you as a person Hunter. I just have issues to deal with that need resolving."
"I'm not sure what you mean by that, but like I said, whatever you decide to do I will respect, anyway here comes Dawson, we'll talk later."
"Good morning class, settle down please."
Between lessons I went to the toilet to relieve myself after finding multiple times that I had a boner that would just not quit. I stood over the toilet pan and furiously jacked my dick until it spewed rope after rope of cum into the water below. I threw my head back and let out a groan of relief before I squeezed out the last remaining drops from my now deflating cock. It was fast and very much needed as I felt automatically de-stressed. Spending time with Hunter it seemed, was influencing my hormones and I was trying to decide if that was a handicap or just fucking awesome.
Leaving the toilets I saw Jessie coming towards me on his way to a lesson I imagined.
"Hey Jensen, how is your day going?"
"Hi Jessie, yeah fine thanks, where are you off to?"
"I got English now, what about you?"
"Science," I replied.
"Cool, hey listen, I'm glad I ran into you. I just wanted to let you know that a few people have started to talk, so you might want to watch out."
"What? I mean, talk about what?"
"Well it seems you and Hunter have become school gossip lately."
"Yeah… so is it true?"
"Is what true?"
"Well you know, are you two like… well, sort of doing stuff?"
"NO!" I squealed.
"Oh, ok, well just thought I would mention it."
"Hmm, thanks for the heads up then."
"Yeah no worries. Listen I gotta go, I'll see you at lunch ok?"
"Sure Jessie, see you soon."
We walked in separate directions and I was now freaking out about what had been said, or more to the point what was BEING said. I wondered if Dave had got the word about whatever was being spread around. Then I wondered why I was getting all worried about it seeing as I hadn't done anything wrong.
The bell went for lunch and Steven waited for me as I packed my stuff away into my bag. We both left the classroom and headed for the cafeteria where we planned to meet the other guys.
"Hunter has invited me to a car event thing," I said to Steven casually.
"Are you going?"
"Dunno, I would need to get permission from mum and dad," I replied as we dodged people coming in the other direction.
"I was more talking about Dave."
I sighed. "We would just be going as friends, Steven."
"Oh come off it Jensen, you can't fool me. So here is a guy that really likes you and instead of inviting some of his long standing friends, he invites someone he has known barely a week."
I hadn't thought about it like that I guess and what Steven said did make sense. Why would he invite me and not someone else. Surely Hunter had closer friends he would rather spend the time with. None the less I was flattered that he had me in mind, and yeah, I still wanted to go.
"Can we go somewhere," I asked.
"We are going somewhere… to eat."
"No I mean, can me and you go somewhere, I need to talk to you."
"But the guys are expecting us Jensen, we can't just not turn up."
"Well we'll go there and tell them we are going somewhere else for lunch, then."
"I take it you just want to talk in private? Because of you do perhaps it's just better we go then otherwise some of them might want to join us… in fact you know Dave will."
"Yeah ok, that's probably a good plan, and yes I do want to talk in private."
"I'll text Billy and let him know, he can then tell the others."
Cool, and… and thanks Steven," I said, thoughtfully.
Steven got on his phone and tapped a few buttons as we left the school grounds. He took a left and we headed out on to a main street which had a long line of shops either side. Crossing the road Steven led me into a small fried chicken place. It looked a bit like KFC but a kind of rip off version.
"What do you want?" he asked, as we looked at the menu.
"Just a chicken burger and some fries," I replied, not really feeling that hungry through nervousness because of what I needed to say. Steven told me to go grab a seat while he ordered for us. The service was super quick because by the time I had got comfortable he was standing in front of me with a tray of food.
"So, what's up?" he asked, sliding himself onto one of the fixed seats and taking a slurp of his soda.
"I'm ending things with Dave, this is not working for me."
"Wow, erm… fuck Jensen, you really mean it don't you."
"Yeah, I do, it's keeping me awake at night, I never feel hungry, I am pretty miserable most of the time and I feel like I am constantly being watched."
"I have to ask, but-"
"Hunter does have something to do with this yeah, if that's what you were about to ask," I interrupted him.
"Have you two done anything?"
"What? No of course not, I do have morals, I would never go behind Dave's back, that's just wrong, even I know that."
"So you are admitting that once you end it with Dave you and Hunter are going to start seeing each other?"
"You make it sound so easy. Look Steven I like Hunter, Hunter likes me. He's good for me, I can feel that with him, he is nothing like Dave. For a start he doesn't give a shit what I do or who I speak to and that is so refreshing. He's kind to me and he is thoughtful, not to mention fucking hunky."
Steven blew air through his lips. "Are you sure this is what you want?"
"Let's take Hunter out of the equation here, as I have done in my mind Steven. Can I say that if Hunter had not have come along I would be having this conversation with you now? I don't know, it's possible. But the way I see it, Dave would still be Dave whether Hunter was around or not."
"I don't get you."
"Well it seems to me that Dave is just jealous of anyone male that I talk to. You know I have even seen him tense up when me and Billy were having a play fight two days ago, and Billy is… well Billy is Billy as you know. I just don't think Dave and I are good for each other and I can't have him control me, Steven, that is not a life for either of us."
"Well, I have to say you make a good argument. If this is really what you want then of course I will support you, but you gotta remember Dave is a close friend of mine who I have known for a long time now, so this is going to be difficult for me to balance."
I put my burger down and stared into Steven's eyes for a moment. "Do… do you think he will be going home soon?"
"Argh, Jesus Jensen, what… so now you want the guy out of the house too?"
"I don't mean it like that, I'm just wondering how this is going to play out once he knows."
"It's going to be fucking shit, and you know it. Especially so once he finds out you are asking mum and dad to go to a car event with Hunter."
"Maybe I shouldn't go… you know, until things settle down."
"I'm not saying don't go, I'm saying that you need to understand how this is going to make Dave feel once he knows."
"Steven, please tell me what to do!" I said, almost frantic. A few people even turned round to look at us due to my voice rising slightly.
"Jensen, I don't know, all I keep thinking about is the three of us cooped up in that room while yours and Dave's relationship implodes."
"Which is the reason I asked you when he is going home. I don't want there to be an atmosphere."
"To be honest, I think he will go home once he finds out you are ending things with him."
"You think? God I feel so shit about all this, but I can't carry on like this. I feel like the bad guy Steven, but I'm not am I, I mean you know why I'm doing this don't you?"
"Yes, I do, and if I were in your situation I would probably do the same, but it doesn't make it any easier does it. Look, we'll just have to see how it goes, but if I were you, I would have a chat with mum rather than me."
"I've tried, but I can never get her on her own."
"Well offer to go to the shops with her or something, you know how she likes to take you places."
Back at school Dave was going nuts in the corridor as to why me and Steven had snuck off, yeah his words, to a secret meeting at lunch. Steven had shot me a few looks which said don't fucking tell him the news while he is in this mood, something which I knew would be a bad idea anyway.
By the end of the day I was in a defiant mood, having had time to mull over in my mind the way Dave had acted when we got back. I actually thought at one point he was going to hit someone, or something. I though, was determined to tell him tonight no matter what mood he was in. As much a walkover I might have come across as, this was something I was determined to do.
Steven and I waited at the main gates for Dave only to be told by Jessie that he had already left the grounds and gone home. Steven rolled his eyes and told me to hurry to see if we could catch him.
It was going to be an interesting evening, that was for sure.
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